Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Round 2

Grady is having his 2nd hypospadia surgery tomorrow. We're praying this will be the final surgery he'll have to endure. I'm taking a week off work so I can take care of my lil' man.
Please pray for his strength and speedy recovery :)

I haven't slept in weeks it seems, I've been so worried. I know everything will go fine with the surgery I'm just worried about what he'll look like when he gets older. I know that may sound strange, but I just don't want him to look different and get teased by the other boys in the locker room.

I can't wait to spend a whole week with him. Hopefully he won't be in too much pain so we can go play at the park or something one day. I'm planning to take a million while I'm off with him, I've been slacking!

Otherwise he's doing great. We're planning to get him moved into the crib after he's healed up. I know I know...I've said that before but this time I mean it!!

I think ;)

Friday, March 6, 2009

Defining myself as a mother...

Now that Grady is 1 year old, I started thinking about the mother I want to be. I've never been the "motherly type" and thought I'd be a horrible mother. But since I gave birth to Grady, I know God meant for me to be his mommy.

The last 12 months I've been taking it diaper-by-diaper and day-by-day. Making it through the few hours of sleep followed by a full day of work, not thinking about the future. (Look no sheets on the bed!)

Now that Grady is walking, talking, and learning I started thinking about how I'll nurture, discipline, support, care for, and educate my son. I started wondering how he'll see me as a mother. (Picture of us on my 1st Mother's Day!)

A woman who conceives, gives birth to, or raises and nurtures a child.
A woman who holds a position of authority or responsibility similar to that of a mother: a den mother.
A mother superior.

TRANSITIVE VERB: moth·ered , moth·er·ing , moth·ers
To give birth to; create and produce.
To watch over, nourish, and protect maternally.

My mother has always been there for me, and is my best friend. I know without a doubt, she'd go without so I wouldn't have to. She's made me the adult I am today. I'm so thankful to have a mother like her.

I hope to encourage him to try anything he wants. I don't want to hold him back in any way. I want him to have everything he needs, but not everything he wants.

I want to be at all his sporting events, but not be the mom with the cowbell. I want to be the mom that has all the kids over on Saturday night and lets them stay up as late as possible.

I hope Grady isn't afraid to tell me anything. I hope to be his best friend. I hope he knows that no matter what, I'll be there for him.

Love you bug!