Sad, upset and angry...

These are a few emotions that hit me yesterday after Grady's 6 week checkup with his Pediatric Urologist. We found out that his hypospadia surgery was not a complete success and that he'll need another surgery to fix a fistula that has recently appeared. :(

A fistula is an abnormal, usually ulcerous channel like formation between two internal organs or between an internal organ and the skin. It may follow a surgical procedure with improper healing, or it may be caused by injury, abscess, or infection with penetration deep enough to reach another organ or the skin. When open at only one end it is called an incomplete fistula or sinus. The most common sites of fistula are the rectum and the urinary organs, but almost any part of the body may be affected.

In other words, he did not heal properly and now has 2 urinary streams.

It breaks my heart that my baby has to go through another surgery. But Jason is trying to keep me positive. He keeps reminding me that we are very lucky that this is the only problem Grady's had after being 6 weeks premature. And he is completely right, but that doesn't take the hurt away.

The doctor said we'll need to wait 6 months for his body to completely heal from this surgery before we can do another. So now we're just waiting.